To my friend and my brother,
I know those time you are feeling really bad even if you are trying to hide it behind your funny mask. I want you to know that you are not alone and that you have to work on your innerself if you want to feel good even if you are alone in your life. It's hard to help you...you got the same honor that I preserve. For be honest I am scared that one day you just let yourself go in your deeper ocean. Come on man stop keeping everything for yourself and ask us some help because you need it!... also stop sleeping when we want to help you XDD
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
The Sun is back
When you think the darkness absorbed all your dream and your reality. You think everything is lost,the end is near. At this time you see a Ray of Light: choose your destiny there is your destiny x) I found the solution for recover my own force and trust me I will follow it. Thanks to the matrice to give me this chance. Anyway the sky is blue now x)
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
despair
I really enjoy the life and I am an optimist one...but even if you enjoy the life you mean just not survive. I am starting to getting enough of this ultra hard life. I can't even eat what I need, I cant even finish to pay my debt, I difficulty to finish my month with the money I earn. For now I am in the shit, I cant even afford my pass and my appartement rent... My family tell me to find the answer myself and wont help me. someome can tell me what I still have in a life like this? if it wasnt of my music I would probably be alrealy dead...but wtf I am not an emo! why I cant just get away of all those shit! I want to live my life and enjoy it like everybody could do it....
Friday, August 21, 2009
Why I hate Hello kitty
A lot of people having fun with this phobia and try to scare me with that little bitch.
Now I want to explain to the interested person why I dont like her.
First of all it's NOT a real phobia!
Of course there was some funny anecdote about this cat and I but there is a stronger meaning of this
Helly plotty stories
the first story was with my old guitarist of my old band. for the sake of the story we'll name her
Setsu (scene name)
This story happened when I was buying my first bass in a store. I was actually trying to "hold" the bass, oh man I can remember well how I was scared to break it XD and Setsu came with a tiny hello kitty guitar.
she said: hey shima looks at this guit!
Instead of showing me the guitar she just decided;by accident of course; to hit me in the face with it.
How can you hit someome holding a 2x bigger instrument in his hand with a /2 tinny hello kitty guitar.
It was a sign!(XD)
Later in the month I saw the most ugly thing in the world. they plotted something in my back!
I founded a picture...
Reita(bassist of The gazette) was holding the hand of who you think??!
HELLO PLOTTY HERSELF
INSULTINGXD
since this moment I started a war against the hello plotty clan~
Now for be more serious.
I hate this cat for one reason.
It's a stupid commercial cat and she's just the result of the humanity groupie's society
it's only a mode.
Before her we had bob square pants, tete a claque, I cant remember the others but everytime we had something cute and stupid loved by the teenager. I can understand that a 7 years old love hello kitty but why a 19 years old lady? and why so much people?! they can't find them own way?
Anyway I prefer the panda-_-''
Now I want to explain to the interested person why I dont like her.First of all it's NOT a real phobia!
Of course there was some funny anecdote about this cat and I but there is a stronger meaning of this
Helly plotty stories
the first story was with my old guitarist of my old band. for the sake of the story we'll name her
Setsu (scene name)
This story happened when I was buying my first bass in a store. I was actually trying to "hold" the bass, oh man I can remember well how I was scared to break it XD and Setsu came with a tiny hello kitty guitar.
she said: hey shima looks at this guit!
Instead of showing me the guitar she just decided;by accident of course; to hit me in the face with it.
How can you hit someome holding a 2x bigger instrument in his hand with a /2 tinny hello kitty guitar.
It was a sign!(XD)
Later in the month I saw the most ugly thing in the world. they plotted something in my back!
I founded a picture...
Reita(bassist of The gazette) was holding the hand of who you think??!
HELLO PLOTTY HERSELF
INSULTINGXD
since this moment I started a war against the hello plotty clan~
Now for be more serious.
I hate this cat for one reason.
It's a stupid commercial cat and she's just the result of the humanity groupie's society
it's only a mode.
Before her we had bob square pants, tete a claque, I cant remember the others but everytime we had something cute and stupid loved by the teenager. I can understand that a 7 years old love hello kitty but why a 19 years old lady? and why so much people?! they can't find them own way?
Anyway I prefer the panda-_-''
My band REIKON Rebirth
REIKON Rebirth
I am not here to present the band has: visual kei band from montreal, guitarist zossima etc etc no I want to say how they are important for me.
I dunno if my bandmember feels the same than me but here I will let myself go and say what I have to say about it.
I dunno if my bandmember feels the same than me but here I will let myself go and say what I have to say about it.
They are my family, we are so different but so near in a way.
Even if sometime we dont really speak about our special relations all togeter
we can feel a special energy/aura
You know when you dont have to speak and the other one understand what you mean?
when REIKON started...before I meet akito zossima and shinkuu. the relation was so dirty and messy.I was not beeing able to follow my dream. When akito left for Japan I had no more energy everything was empty but. There was the first sign in a way. Even with all the distance we was able to continue to make our passion comes true.
I dunno why but since the beginning... I learn that I didnt have to speak with akito for he understand or the inverse. we wanted the same thing. I was understanding his aura even if at the beginning he wasnt speaking at all XD. Anyway I think it's really nice to see how he's evolving and incrase his own capacity.
After that there was the second miracle: Zossima and Shinkuu
Shinkuu is probably the one I can speak as my trueself in the band. I feel I can say everything I feel and he wont be scared even more he will speak back. I dunno for him but I really like to pass free time with him. even more when it's alone...I can start to learn who he is since I know that he got a deep ocean inside him too.
For zossima...of course I think we two are the 2 extreme of the comportement. Him, so flexible and easy going he's like the water: calm and fluid.Overwise me: hard and strong like the fire. direct and burning all the obstacles I meet. but even if we are the opposite... it's like attractive in a way. A french expression would say "les differences s'attire" and that making me loving beeing with zossima. he have such of a good positif energy! he's calming me down everytime I am flaming myself.
anyway for me Loosing one of them would be a real terror,so hard on my heart... I am starting to attach myself and I would call that a miracle after what happened in my other band.
anyway if I had to developp about reikon I would say it's like my soul/my life
Even if sometime we dont really speak about our special relations all togeter
we can feel a special energy/aura
You know when you dont have to speak and the other one understand what you mean?
when REIKON started...before I meet akito zossima and shinkuu. the relation was so dirty and messy.I was not beeing able to follow my dream. When akito left for Japan I had no more energy everything was empty but. There was the first sign in a way. Even with all the distance we was able to continue to make our passion comes true.
I dunno why but since the beginning... I learn that I didnt have to speak with akito for he understand or the inverse. we wanted the same thing. I was understanding his aura even if at the beginning he wasnt speaking at all XD. Anyway I think it's really nice to see how he's evolving and incrase his own capacity.
After that there was the second miracle: Zossima and Shinkuu
Shinkuu is probably the one I can speak as my trueself in the band. I feel I can say everything I feel and he wont be scared even more he will speak back. I dunno for him but I really like to pass free time with him. even more when it's alone...I can start to learn who he is since I know that he got a deep ocean inside him too.
For zossima...of course I think we two are the 2 extreme of the comportement. Him, so flexible and easy going he's like the water: calm and fluid.Overwise me: hard and strong like the fire. direct and burning all the obstacles I meet. but even if we are the opposite... it's like attractive in a way. A french expression would say "les differences s'attire" and that making me loving beeing with zossima. he have such of a good positif energy! he's calming me down everytime I am flaming myself.
anyway for me Loosing one of them would be a real terror,so hard on my heart... I am starting to attach myself and I would call that a miracle after what happened in my other band.
anyway if I had to developp about reikon I would say it's like my soul/my life
Who you think I am? and what I think I am
I am someome that everybody think they got the exact answer of: who I am. For some reasons they are always wrong so I will present myself
☆ Shima ☆
I want to start with what the people think about me, judging by the appearance
☆ I am the humoristic one☆
☆ I am the entertaining one.☆
☆ The leader the mighty one.☆
☆ The positif one.☆
☆ The black guardian angel☆
☆ The wall if you prefer.☆
☆ I am the entertaining one.☆
☆ The leader the mighty one.☆
☆ The positif one.☆
☆ The black guardian angel☆
☆ The wall if you prefer.☆
People think they can hit me or hold themself without I loose any energy, like I would feeling anything .
☆ For them I am the brutal one,☆
☆ Androgyne comportement,☆
☆ I am a really hard character to understand.☆
☆ Nobody is able to see the bottom of my ocean. They just see the surface of it.☆
☆ Funny Shima.☆
☆ Strong person,☆
☆ Hard to stop and as many supposition hard to speak with too.☆
☆ I am really mysterious since I am too hard to know well☆
☆ Androgyne comportement,☆
☆ I am a really hard character to understand.☆
☆ Nobody is able to see the bottom of my ocean. They just see the surface of it.☆
☆ Funny Shima.☆
☆ Strong person,☆
☆ Hard to stop and as many supposition hard to speak with too.☆
☆ I am really mysterious since I am too hard to know well☆
☆ WHO I AM☆
I am a really deep person,
really unic in my kind.
Really funny of course since I am an humoristic one but not in the way you think.
I follow my goal to the end.
Really hard worker... I am a courage's pool on 2 legs.
I look really badass and I am badass also really intimidant...but who said that kind and badass cant be mixt togeter?
I am calm and coldminded.
Really logical.
High conversation is a delection for my soul.
I am a lonely Wolf.
I am not able to attach myself to nobody since I learned that you have to be so much careful with everyone if you dont want to suffer ...
People think I vant myself... for my I am humble and they do it for me.
I am the mysterious since I dont really speak about my emotion.
I dont like to express myself when I help person.
For me it's a gift and I do it for free. Even if some people misjudge me and thing that that I am a mean bad person
I have this unlucky touch that is always following me XD forcing me to work 1000x time than anybody elseXD
I take the life as simple as I can and I prefer enjoy it than depress in my corner.
For me everything is a gift, a treasure; everyfucking thing you have in your possession, dreams, food, life, good moment.
I am Really REALLY direct with everyone. The time is so precious I dont even have the time to confuse myself and the person. I save your time and mine and also I tell you the real things for upgrade your life.
I am a really open minded person. I have my own opinion and a really strong one but I love to hear different one since I am always searching for the truth.
I really love when people speak with me about opinion and especially when they got the courage to tell me what they think about me.
Optimiste going with the courage
I really love meet new persons;fat,tall,black,anything! more people more experience!
I want to live everything I can for give me good experience in my life! even if it's hurt!
really unic in my kind.
Really funny of course since I am an humoristic one but not in the way you think.
I follow my goal to the end.
Really hard worker... I am a courage's pool on 2 legs.
I look really badass and I am badass also really intimidant...but who said that kind and badass cant be mixt togeter?
I am calm and coldminded.
Really logical.
High conversation is a delection for my soul.
I am a lonely Wolf.
I am not able to attach myself to nobody since I learned that you have to be so much careful with everyone if you dont want to suffer ...
People think I vant myself... for my I am humble and they do it for me.
I am the mysterious since I dont really speak about my emotion.
I dont like to express myself when I help person.
For me it's a gift and I do it for free. Even if some people misjudge me and thing that that I am a mean bad person
I have this unlucky touch that is always following me XD forcing me to work 1000x time than anybody elseXD
I take the life as simple as I can and I prefer enjoy it than depress in my corner.
For me everything is a gift, a treasure; everyfucking thing you have in your possession, dreams, food, life, good moment.
I am Really REALLY direct with everyone. The time is so precious I dont even have the time to confuse myself and the person. I save your time and mine and also I tell you the real things for upgrade your life.
I am a really open minded person. I have my own opinion and a really strong one but I love to hear different one since I am always searching for the truth.
I really love when people speak with me about opinion and especially when they got the courage to tell me what they think about me.
Optimiste going with the courage
I really love meet new persons;fat,tall,black,anything! more people more experience!
I want to live everything I can for give me good experience in my life! even if it's hurt!
I think it's enought for a somary but the better thing to do when you really want to know me is... speak with me!:)
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Why people always judge on the appearence?
I observed how people are reacting with me.
What they think, what they say.
I think it's horrible how people can open them mouth and just dont think about the consequence of all the vomit they puke.
I know I can be intimidanting with my "special aura" houuu~ or my presence and my appearance.
They treat me like I was a monster, The mighty guardian angel with the black wings...
You protect them they hit you instead.
They will never understand your action, hided by an illusion wall.
They prefer to think that you are the target to destroy.
You work your ass off to follow your dream. Instead of supporting you...
They grab you like death try to grab the life and try to bring you back to the underground level... even if you; for get the place you have now; passed by the abyss.
They are scared of what they dont know and dont even try to acknowledge themself of who you are; normal in a way they dont even know themself.
I hope one day the true will be said and the people will think about them action.
You dont know me in a certain way that's mean you can't speak like you was my friend.
The friend smile to you and hurt you in the back.
No more spine here milady and gentleman!
No more caracter! it's not because I know what I want in my life that you can't affront me for what you think!
What they think, what they say.
I think it's horrible how people can open them mouth and just dont think about the consequence of all the vomit they puke.
I know I can be intimidanting with my "special aura" houuu~ or my presence and my appearance.
They treat me like I was a monster, The mighty guardian angel with the black wings...
You protect them they hit you instead.
They will never understand your action, hided by an illusion wall.
They prefer to think that you are the target to destroy.
You work your ass off to follow your dream. Instead of supporting you...
They grab you like death try to grab the life and try to bring you back to the underground level... even if you; for get the place you have now; passed by the abyss.
They are scared of what they dont know and dont even try to acknowledge themself of who you are; normal in a way they dont even know themself.
I hope one day the true will be said and the people will think about them action.
You dont know me in a certain way that's mean you can't speak like you was my friend.
The friend smile to you and hurt you in the back.
No more spine here milady and gentleman!
No more caracter! it's not because I know what I want in my life that you can't affront me for what you think!
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